Saving the month

I never thought that it is possible to have a losing month as a SNG-player. I’ve played already 2,2k SNGs and I’m down almost 1k with rakeback. Luckily today is just the 17th and I’m pretty confident that I will catch up and end the month somewhat placable.

So why am I doing so badly and what is going wrong? Well, first thing, I run awfully bad. Terrible is probably the best word to describe it. I’m down more than 4,5k in EV and I seem to run in all possible setups. Honestly I am a little bit surprised that I’m down so much in EV because every time I shove, whether it is AK or 48s, I seem to run about 90% into a dominating hand. On every bubble the short stack seems to win all of his 20/80 hands and most of the time they even get walks when they have 1 big blinds ha-ha.

The other side of the story is that I’m not killing the €100 games. Honestly, at best I’m probably around 1-2%ish when I do play 12 tables or more. I thought I could achieve a ROI of 4-5% with 12 tables but that is very likely not doable for me. It’s always sad when you have to admit to yourself that you are not as good as you thought, but hey, I made lot of progress last weeks with me and I have absolutely no problem going back to Stars and grind just for the rakeback (what is still more than 15k/month). I’m happy that this down had almost no impact on my game, nor on my feelings. I also played a lot and did never stop because I had the feeling of feeling uncomfortable.

The picture below shows how profitable my last couples of days were. I know that all of you guys want to see my EV graph and all that stuff but I’m not going to post it before the end of this month. Just be a little bit more patient : – )

Given the fact that I’m just doing well I’m going back to Stars as soon I have played a total of 1,2k €100 SNGs on GD. The reason for that is pretty simple; I want to give myself a chance to win at least a couple of €100s back with the double leader board. I give myself a timeframe of 3 days, till Wednesday to have played the last SNGs and then I’ll be multitabling on Stars again. I’m aiming 200k VPPs this month, 50k are already made and 150k in less than 12 days is somewhat tough but I do not plan to leave the house anyway so I give myself a decent chance to get there. I’m down 1k at the moment, but I expect me to be up 7-9k at the end of this month.

I know that a couple of days ago I wrote that it is a tough decision to stick to another plan because of my will to change my attitude and behavior, but this time I really have no choice. I cannot choose between good and good, this time I have to take the good and just drop my idea of killing €100 SNGs and having a enough high ROI to get that much bonus€ from leader boards that I can easily pass on milestones. Of course this is another kickback, but only in difficult times peoples are able to change. Last half year I changed a lot and learned a lot about myself and I was able to enhance my personality more than the previous three years together. No pain, no gain. I’m making small steps back, but big steps forward and this is the reason why I’m not worried at all. We’re all on a road and we never reach the goal (unless we’re dead obv.) thus there will be always a new step back and a new chance to make big steps in the correct direction.

Well, I guess that’s enough philosophic, let’s talk about February. I have some rough plans in my head, grinding hardcore till 20^th and than enjoying playing FTOPs 2day 2,5k$, FTOPs $500 6max turbo and of course FTOPS ME. If I’m at 400k VPPs till than I will stop grinding and focus on theory for cash game. Haven’t played cash in a while but I’m so excited about this and all I want to do is playing around all day long with stove and making lots of equity calcs : – )